Learning to Love Myself

Congrats to my Hailey. She won Little Miss American Rose Girard City Princess. I am so proud of my baby. She will be competing in the state pagaent in Ohio on Sept 30.

I have been away for awhile for some personal reasons going on in my life. So here is so updated pics. Hosted by Krystyn at Really, Are You Serious?

I haven't been blogging for awhile. I have alot going on in my life and I don't have anyone to talk to really about it beacuse I dont have alot of friends and my family is very private. I cant hold this in anymore. I am trying to stay calm and strong for my kids. Well you all know my dad passed away from cancer in Feb. Well not even a few months after my dad passed away my mom was diagnosed with stage 4 lung and brain cancer How am I suppose to deal with this and stay strong for the kids? I have moments I just wanna cry all day or I have moments that I just wanna be a total bitch. How do you deal with this? I pray but I dont know if God hears me.

Alot has been going on here. UGH! I have been busy with School. We moved. I am dealing with alot of things in my life right now. Tyler just has his 4th birthday! Hailey is in Virgnia with her OMA (grandma in German). Hailey will be starting dance next month. I am so excited. So I am going to be back to Blogging.

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I am so confused with my feelings right now. How would you feel if you graduated colllege an NONE of your family showed up except for my kids and Sascha who was graduating also. My father couldnt make it cuz he passed away but my mother never called, texted or showed up. Neither did my siblings. Well my sisters wedding was today and I couldnt make it cuz I had to work and she didnt give me enough time to request off plus I live 5 hrs away! It pisses me off that they say they were coming and I was looking forward to it. I feel like they dont love me. They say I am being childish and dramatic for wanting them here and being upset. It hurts cuz that I just lost my dad and wanting my family to be there for me....But they dont. I am sick of it. I have Sascha and my kids and a wonderful mother in law.

I love doing this Mommy and Me! These pictures were talking before my college graduation last week Hosted by Krystyn