How am I dealing with things??

I honestly dont know how I am dealing with life anymore. With 4 deaths in my family in less than 10 months. I lost a cousin, my grandpa, an uncle, and my daddy.

I lost my cousin Jason the week April 4, 2009. I lost my Grandpa Allen June 15, 2009. I lost my Uncle Chris July 7, 2009 and lost my Daddy Febuary 8, 2010!

3 of them were very important to me.

My Grandpa Allen was the reason I went back to school to get my Medical Assisting Degree. Hailey loved my Grandp so much. That was Great Pawpaw....She was the 1st great grandbaby that Grandpa saw at just a few days old. They used to make faces at eachother.

My Uncle Chris was the only one I could turn to when I needed him. We always did stuff together and talked about things.

My daddy was my rock. He might have not always been there when I was a kid. No matter what or where I was he cared about me and was always there. My Daddy had such a big heart. He always called me on some stupid holiday and to say something to me. I miss him so much. I need him but I know he is no longer her and no longer in pain from the Cancer.

I wish I knew how to stop crying about all this. I really need my daddy. I feel like a part of me died when I lost him. I pray to God that they all are up there and ok. I love all of them so much.

I hear this song and I think of my Daddy and Grandpa.


  1. What a beautiful the words. You've been through so much, girl....and you know you are in my prayers. But, you are stronger than you know. You know I understand with my mom being diagnosed with cancer too. I will keep praying for comfort for you and your family!!

  2. So sorry. I didn't listen to the song, because I knew it would be too hard for me. I can honestly say, I know how you feel. That is too many people in that span of time. I lost my Grandma last April, my Father-in-law last August and then my Mama last October. Praying for your comfort and peace and that God will ease your pain. ~Lanie

  3. I am so sorry about your losses. I wish you strength in this difficult time.


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